Graffiti from God: Your Wednesday Word of the Week

"MICROPENIS" - seen in the East Village, NYC

“MICROPENIS” – seen in the East Village, NYC

Well.  The Gods presented me with something deep.  Something wise.  Something….penetrating.  and here I am!  Blessed to be able to impart its wisdom – a daunting task.  Bear with me:



We are all created in God’s image.  We have the ability to create.  and destroy. We are all micropenises.  We are all microvaginas. A fast, hard nature (yang), a soft yielding nature (yin).

Go forth.  Spread your seed.

Let your little micropenises impregnate microvaginas

Remember: The Big Bang has rippled throughout space and time throughout eternity, so too, your creative acts.  Use your powers wisely.


Weekly Tarot Combo for Sept. 29-Oct.6: 4 of Wands and 8 of Pentacles

4 of Wands and 8 of Pentacles, Rider-Waite deck

4 of Wands and 8 of Pentacles, Rider-Waite deck

Wow. Tarot doesn’t PLAY Y’ALL. The 8 of pentacles has made yet another comeback. but this time with GOOD NEWS. Whatever you started has entered a completion phase with the 4 of wands (the magical order of the Golden Dawn calls this card “The Lord of Perfected Work.” — not subtle!). Celebrate yourself. Celebrate work well done; you’re invited to the party. Whatever it is you started, the universe is bearing witness and has a surprise in store for you.

The 8 of Pentacles has shown up for the 3rd time since I’ve devoted myself to the weekly readings, about a month ago.  You can check out those articles here and here.

What is it that you’ve wanted to manifest in the material plane? Ever have those things in life that just have NOT come easy? That thing that might be easy for one person – a relationship, for example, might be the thing you needed to slowly chisel away at to make manifest in the material realm, another person a money issue. What is it that you’ve been working at that seems like it needs neverending upkeep? Well, the universe notices and has noticed. You’ve graduated.

Movin’ on up dudes!

Maybe this is what those new age people were talking about when they said something along the vein of “ascension 2015!”  I dunno, maybe a boon from the heavens. Perhaps not x-ray vision, or the ability to dissolve into the 5th dimension, but you know, a little something.  I guess it all makes sense, since we just finished a lunar eclipse on the Aries (Mars – self)/Libra (Venus – other) axis.  I’m wary of talking about the whole thing…it’s conjunct my sun/mars and well, I’m a little frazzled and the dust hasn’t settled.  Something ended, something begins, that’s as far as I’ll go.  The 4 of wands rules Venus in Aries (ruler of Mars), there’s a clue that this opportunity is eclipse/equinox related.  Something about balance (masculine (aries)/feminine (venus) , and a stable foundation from which to create.  Check out the Thoth deck for more clues about the 4 of wands.

The 8 of pentacles is driving the point home (again and again and again), what are you devoted to? What are you tending?  The astrology is mirroring this – the moon was conjunct Vesta during this eclipse – asteroid of tending the hearth, the sacred flame.  What is alchemizing with every new pentacle lovingly made? Keep on keepin’ on.  Opportunity awaits, you’ve co-created it.  It doesn’t stop here however, remember, we have a 4, a minor arcana, we’ve created a stable foundation and opportunity, but it is only a joyful pit stop before we continue on with our work.

Graffiti from God: Your Wednesday Word of the Week

"Gold Poo," Seen on Evergreen Ave, Bushwick, Brooklyn.

“Gold Poo,” Seen on Evergreen Ave, Bushwick, Brooklyn.

Mercury retrograde gets a lot of press these days.  It’s a time when Mercury slows down and other planets whizz past, and occurs about three of four times a year.   It’s actually a restful state of the planet, not a reversal of its direction. In general, it’s a time for the prefix “re”- a time to renegotiate, revise, reorganize, review.

Astrologically for me this retrograde is hitting hard. I am a Gemini with Libra rising- air signs both. A psychic that claimed to see auras told me mine stopped at my knees and I was unanchored to the earthly plane- I go where the wind blows. As someone that moves about this earth unrestricted, I am extremely uncomfortable with anything that restrains me. I am a quick, no looking back decisive person and I resent returning to the past. This retrograde demands a reconsideration of our life decisions, particularly our communications and how we have and will react to things in our realm.

Months ago I wrote about the grimy lunch lady of life serving me heaping helpings from a shit buffet. Now with Mercury retrograde in Libra until October 9th I find myself re-seated at the table of reheated crap with renewed outrage. I am revisiting the old hurts, reflecting on the past, and searching for a new revelation that will set me on a new course after this re-diculous period ends.

The graffiti “gold poo” found on Evergreen Ave in Bushwick, Brooklyn suggests that there is opportunity in this shit show. It’s a chance to reassess the situation you are in and rethink how you want to deal with it. It’s a cosmic re-do: what would be the result if we resolved to respond to our old crap in a new way?

With love, Carrie x

Weekly Tarot Reading for Sept 22-29: The Hanged Man and 5 of Cups

Hanged Man and 5 of Cups - Rider Waite tarot deck

Hanged Man and 5 of Cups – Rider Waite tarot deck

This week’s weekly reading made me take pause, in much the same way The Hanged Man functions – stillness and reflection.  While this combination seems straightforward – let go and feel your loss – with the Hanged Man, we have something a bit more….complicated.

As an aside, this combination produced a divine earworm, a cheesy one hehe.  It was Steve Winwood’s hit song “Higher Love.”

I could light the night up with my soul on fire
I could make the sun shine from pure desire
Let me feel that love come over me
Let me feel how strong it could be

Bring me a higher love
Bring me a higher love
Bring me a higher love
Where’s that higher love I keep thinking of?

Ah, the Hanged Man is all about surrendering to that divine, ecstatic love.  Thanks intuition!

We live in a world of duality, as indicated in the bible’s notion of “the heavens” and “the earth,” the “flesh” and the “spirit.”  This seems simplistic enough.  Sometimes we are attracted and follow paths of the spirit, and something we gravitate to the path of the flesh, and sometimes what is corporeal is sacred, and sometimes those invisible things are less than holy.

The Hanged Man calls for shifting your perspective on an overarching energy in your life that causes disappointment / no longer works (indicated by the 5 of cups).  The Hanged Man is about being irresistibly drawn to things that are otherworldly.  That are holy, if you will.  It calls for you to sacrifice something for the greater good – for your own life, and for those of others, so that divine order can flow once more.  There are times in life where we have to shift our center of gravity, what was good yesterday, no longer seems good today.  Our perceptions, if one is aware enough, usually evolve over time, and with that, we must let go of ideas and patterns that no longer serve us.  We can know what needs shifting by noticing where you find TENSION in your life (that man is deep in tension, and enlightened my friend) .  Card 12 suggests that what you’re searching for is something of a higher, more spiritual view of your life.  The idea that each tension is actually a gift to draw us closer to that which is divine.  Not bad!

Astrologically, The Hanged Man is ruled by Neptune – a planet all about the unseen, higher planes of reality, faith, dissolution (it likes to dissolve), spirituality.  It is currently squaring Saturn in Sagittarius, planet of structure, in the sign of philosophy, wisdom, optimism and truth.  My take is that there are certain dogmas, ways of seeing things that are in need of dissolution.  A truth you held in your life may no longer stand the test of time, and may need to dissolve, and vice versa, maybe a new idea will change your view on life where there was only fog.  With the square, we have a place of tension between concrete/crystallized ideas, and Neptune’s spiritual watery woo woo stuff.  I guess we’ll have time to resolve this tension because this applying square will be with us for awhile.

So let’s look at the 5 of Cups.  The 5 of cups is asking us to mourn what no longer works for us.  It is ruled by Mars in Scorpio.  Mars is an active principle in astrology.  It is yang energy, it is a personal planet.  The 5 of cups is asking you to plumb the depths and feel your loss.  It’s essential and healthy.  Mourn it.  Put on a bunch of black and go to town with your mourning – cry, get it OUT, Mars says, I’m thinking those Sicilian ladies with veils.

Use the lessons that Saturn in Scorpio taught you…chances are Saturn in Scorpio revealed the thing you needed to let go of to begin with.

Graffiti from God: Your Wednesday Word of the Week

One-word Graffiti: React. Seen on Ulica Bozego Milosierdzia, Krakow, Poland

One-word Graffiti: React. Seen on Ulica Bozego Milosierdzia, Krakow, Poland

This week’s Graffiti was found on Ulica Bozego Milosierdzia (Divine Mercy Street).

Here in Europe the media has become saturated with reactions to the Syrian refugee crisis. In Poland, a country that is 99% white and almost completely catholic, the debate is heated. Urged by the Pope to provide Christian charity and political discourse, the other side warns of “Islamitization”and a threat to the Polish culture.

Conversation among the people I have contact with here in Krakow reveals strong emotions. Smart people are saying fearful things. The faithful are struggling to reconcile their commitment to the Church and the desire to keep Poland homogenous. One thing is for sure, the mass migration of 4 million Syrians from their home country is an issue that demands a reaction- they’re here, they’re near, they need a place to go, get used to it.

Now, with the Sun in Virgo, it’s a perfect season to reflect on the traits of this sign. The values are respect, hard work, and above all service to others. It’s also a worrying sign that does everything it can to make things work for everyone.

It’s a Virgo time and a big Virgo problem. How do we “React” with Divine Mercy?

With love, Carrie x

Weekly Tarot Combination for Sept. 14-20: Knight of Wands and 9 of Swords

Knight of Wands and 9 of Swords - Radiant tarot deck

Knight of Wands and 9 of Swords – Radiant tarot deck

There’s a viral posting somewhere on Tumblr that says something like, “Speak your truth, even if your voice shakes.” That is my immediate reaction upon seeing this combination.

I see this combo and think, “uh oh, that dreaded self-expression issue is UP!” As someone who would rather float and observe, these cards are a call to participate in life, with gusto.  More than that, the Knight of Wands is about bold self-inquiry and self-expression.

There are people who think they know things, and indeed, they probably do. People in authority who are didactic and claim to have all the answers. and while that is great, ultimately, we are on our own path. The Knight of Wands coupled with the 9 of swords is asking you to explore ways in which we give our power away to people, to authority, to the world. While I agree it is wise to consider and explore the ways people have made their way through life, I am also asking you to consider your own inner wisdom and knowing and ask questions; consider inquiry. Be curious. Be bold. Be boldly curious. I’m being didactic as I write this, and urge you to consider and un-consider my words in the face of your own truth, your own path, your own expressive drive in this world.

I won’t bother you with notions of what “truth” is, but perhaps it’s the idea of trusting your gut, your intuition, with this knight I would even say those knee-jerk instincts, possibly coupled with the wisdom of experience (he looks like he’s come back from battle – look at those clothes), instead of the loud voice of the mind indicated by those nightmares that keep you up at night.

Speaking of nightmares, the 9 of swords makes another appearance. The mind may react to your bold inquiry with doubt. My suggestion is to watch your thoughts and consider valium. Just kidding. Maybe. Anyway, The ego (that dreaded thing new agers condemn, another topic) wants to react, the lizard brain might think it unsafe to express yourself, you could, you know, lose your job, or lose your sense of safety or a girlfriend/boyfriend, or your reputation. The mind can be a bottomless barrel of doubt. YAY.

There’s always this idea that something is at stake when we’re being authentic, that we have something to lose. At least that’s been my experience. But at the end of the day, what do we have if we don’t have ourselves?

It’s probably important to ask questions during this new moon eclipse. Virgo energies can sometimes get mired in details, stuck in neuroses, lacking in self-confidence. As a person with this new moon eclipse in the 12th house (the house of the unconscious, how we undo ourselves, psychological issues), I can tell you I’ve sought to ask again and again what is true, and what isn’t true for me. I’ve asked myself the deeper underlying issues of specific triggers that brought me down a rabbit hole of weird feels. I’ve had to ask questions about seemingly progressive institutions’ ideas of what’s right (12th house also rules institutions) and be like, “well, no, actually, that doesn’t work for me,” (Tinder anyone?) and re-consider what some would consider antiquated, out-of-style or just plain weird. No judgments to others who would disagree or have arguably more informed opinions, but considering and validating what is true for me and honoring it with expression, knight of wands style.

So, with that, god-speed, my friend. Be yourself (unless you’re Ann Coulter or something), be scared, it beats the numb feeling of living your life asleep, merely a passenger of others’ ideas of what is right and true for you.

Graffiti from God: Your Wednesday Word of the Week

“EAGER ICK” – Seen in Brooklyn, NY

As many of you all know, I recently moved to New York.  I seem to come back to this city over and over again, this being maybe like my fourth time back.  New York is a transitory city, people always move in and move out, therefore each experience here is unique.

The downside is that I usually have to start over, building a network of people before getting somewhere.  Oh well.  I keep hearing this kind of catch-phrase with people living here that you shouldn’t “try too hard” or be “over eager” when finding friends or looking for work.  Apparently this is annoying.

And what a Catch-22.  You’re in a new place – you WANT friends, you WANT a job.  It’s natural to want to try too hard to attain both.

“Eager ick”  no no, NY don’t heart over-eager.  It is considered emphatically icky (“EAGER ICK!”) to LONG FOR things in this city and show it.

I’d like to create a space here for you to LONG FOR things, to want a good life for yourself..  But also remind you (“EAGER ICK”) not to over water your plants, so to speak.  Long for your things, create a space to feel into your heart’s desires, let them go, and see comes back around.  Easier said than done.

With love, Ambar x